On line Confessional : to young women especially warning blessings

 I married an upwardly mobile man at 22. He tried to casually ruin my life. Because that’s what he was conditioned to do since childhood. And ruined his instead. I had to quietly piece my life back together  (so they wouldn’t interfere and block me) and him and his people blamed me for his destructive behavior and weaponized our children in purely useless spite. M y family fashionably castigated me for having children at all . My ugly souled but physically beautiful mother favored her male children drove my sister physically ill& 

Mental for staying by her. Sick attachment based on competitive jealousy that has no place in a mother daughter relationship. They both are near dead. I have no feeling for them at all. 

I live thousands of miles away , my ex and his in-laws had proudly custody and twisted ly thinking that made me suffer it  didn’t. My eldest son was born basically a demon I wondered about that until he turned 12 and beat my ex’s zza. These people on both sides lived and breathed vengeance on NOTHING and are dying off secure in the fact that I was their whipping boy . I refused some of them even on their deathbeds including my own weak willed father and in process with my own misogyny  bound scheming mother. They invented lies about me and spread them. I ignored that and went on upon my own business. And most of the others in this decades long drama are still silent still pretending that they are upstanding citizens which in fact they are beasts of the field with a penchant for drawing money. And I think I will have brunch this fine Sunday & find a beach to stroll alongside today. And forget about them. 

The reason I am telling you may be cathartic in part but mainly to expose this mythology that leads young women to believe in loyalty. You owe abusive false people nothing . Especially when they think they have the upper hand! Whether u are married to them or blood or say they are friends . Operate on actions not words . Protect your soul stay MORAL but don’t indulge in doormat! Forgiveness even God does not always apply She has conditions for Her Love! 

Violations are just that respond to them defensively instead of endlessly expecting justice from traitors. Put yourself first. Or d1e early. People closest to you can do the worst. I suspect the government will give us no choice but to leave of course don’t expect good from them . Cut ties at least psychically. Don’t naively expect strangers to be better. Either.. 

Set shock and offense aside move before you are made to. Foreign people have  their own hierarchies expect confrontation there  move in silence ( my lifelong plan) plan for the worst and enjoy the best. Do you see my thumbnail? I am 65. And successful. Eat & live wholesomely and rested. Live in a natural playground. That did not come from the thin air. It was intentional and crafted. Our ENEMIES require our suffering so they can exploit us and they have alliance in wrong doing , unity. Stay on moral code! They require our silence . Don’t give it to them! They control our bodies we had systems before in nature and civilization they took over! Take back what’s yours! These pigs graping and eating CHILDREN! What else do you need to hear? Their systems are falling . Don’t help them! Dealing with males there’s no reason to assume a low rung in relationship you should never accept  your vulnerability . It isn’t biblical, necessary nor deserved. The trend of late is horrible exploitation. These old men leading with oppression got all the money in the world won’t share any! In nature most males  d1e VIRGINS! They deserve NOTHING from you !